The smile on the outside just hides the tears on the inside. I don't cry! I cant, unless of course if it involves my mom and dad. I have to soldier on! I will not let it break me, "stand strong my boy, you will come through one day... one day" I had feeling's, I fucked them up a long time ago. Now I am an empty vessel. I am a changed man... I don't know if it is for the better or worse.
This is the only time I can feel whole again, funny, that the thing that keeps me whole breaks me down when I think of it. Nothing's gonna change, not for now at least, is it ever gonna change? I lie to myself day by day, saying things will get better when I know, that it is never gonna get any better than it was, because 'it' was perfect. The perfect moment.
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